assalamualaikum ,
one of my favourite pastime since my two years of life in boarding school is writing . i do a lot of essays and poems as well . my writings are mostly personal or some events that occured around me in my 17 going to be 18 years of life . but sometime it is just an imagination hoho . more like BERANGAN senang cerita haha .
so bascially , what i am about to write today is one of the essays that i had written last year . do read it if you want to , if you dont i dont care :P enjoy .( sorry kalau grammar berterabur ye )
Smile.
The day was hot as always . I usually would hang out for awhile after school before going back home but today I decided I am not in the mood . PMS I suppose . as I walked back home I heard a melodious sound coming from somewhere but I could not find it . I searched and followed the sound as I kept on walking . as I reached nearer and nearer , I saw a guy sitting on a bench in the park. He was the one playing the music . he was playing a violin . I stood right in front of him and just wanted to say he was freaking awesome but he was too focused playing the violin , so I sat around for awhile waiting for him to stop so I can say something . the sound was very mesmerizing . it made me thought of love and affections . it could not really be expressed with words . you should listen and you will know :)
As I waited and waited , he finally stopped .
I came closer to him just to say hello . he seems to ignore me . I mean what the hell ? are you deaf or something ? so , I said it again .HELLO ! he looked up and said who is there ? I made a weird face . am I too tanned for him to see or something ? then he finally said , hello back . he apologized for not seeing me . I forgave him . then suddenly I saw his eyes . he had a yellowish-brown eyes like a sunset . it was super stunning . then he suddenly said yet again , are you still here ? this time I was mad , I mean why ? am I that dark ? really ? really man ? I did not answer . I waited for him to talk or speak again . then , he stood up and walked away from me .
I knew something was not right with this guy , I was about to compliment him but then he walked away . how dare him do that ? but then instead of me running towards him , my legs suddenly froze as I saw him took out a walking stick from his bag and started to walk . from that moment I knew that he was unable to see the world but has an ability that not many people have . melodious tune . I then asked him to stop , he turned around and stopped . he said wow , you are still here ? I smiled and introduced myself . and of course I did compliment him like I wanted to in the first place . I decided to walk with him instead of going home . I even got to know him . he is three years older than I am and you know what , he is taking music modern course in Lim Kok Wing . spectacular ! even a guy like him , I mean that has less perfection than we all have , he is able to take course in a freaking university .
Ah ! I had forgotten to mention his name . his name was Mutalib . has the sweet smile that made me felt really comfortable to talk to him . then suddenly it was time to get back home . he gave his phone number and we continued to contact each other . as we did , suddenly I realized that he had something even more . my affection towards him was getting fonder and fonder each day . I had a feeling that I wanted more from him rather than just being acquaintances . then , he asked me to meet him in the same park we met last time . oh by the way , we have been contacting each other for about thirteen months even though we seldom see each other , but we always contact through the phone and stuff . the first time I met him at the park was actually the last time I saw him because he was too busy with music and I was too busy with high school . boring I know =.=’
As I waited for him , I looked at the constellations above me that just does not stop shining . then , he came with his violin and a bouquet of carnations . my favourite :) he then asked me to sit down . he took out his violin and played the same tune the first time I met him . i felt the melody reaching my skin and moving beneath it . it was just amazing . suddenly , he grabbed my hand as he found it and he got down on his knees , I was feeling weird . what is he doing ? he asked me to close my eyes . after a few minutes , he asked me to open up my eyes . then I saw about 10 little girls wearing a dress with fairy wings behind them carrying a basket of rose petals inside .then , the girls threw the petals that forms some kind of trail , he asked me to follow the trail , and I did . I held his hand tightly as I was too nervous to know the surprise . then suddenly the trail stopped right in front of a big tree . a really enormous tree but somehow really beautiful . the girls then sang a song , I sat as I was astonished . but I still did not understand what was all this for , then he reached out for something in his pocket . and there was a chocolate coated biscuit in a packet . he gave it to me .there were two inside it . it was tasty . I ate one first . then he asked me to eat again , and I did , suddenly I saw a sparkling sapphire gemstone inside . and there was it . a ring . he asked my hand for marriage . I was too young . I rejected .i ran away from the scene . since that day , I did not contact him in any possible ways . I am sure he was devastated but I was immature and young to even enter the marriage realm .
10 YEARS LATER .
I was at a wedding ceremony with my gals seeing my best friend getting married . then there was a performer at the wedding . the guy was playing the same tune as Mutallib used to play before . after the show , I immediately went backstage . but I was frustrated as it was not the guy I wanted to see . I asked him , how did he knew to play that song , and he said it was from his mentor years back , Mutallib . I was excited as I thought yet again I had a chance to meet him . then the violin guy said that Mutallib died a month ago . I was lost for words . I sat down due to the shocking news . I realized that in life , even though you love someone , it does not mean that you will get it , and sometimes even when u got it , does not mean you will grab it . I was sad as he was the one who put the smile on my face each minute of everyday even until now . I could not turn back time . but I knew one thing for sure , his smile and melody will always guide me through the days . in the end , I did not get married ever , as I reached 30 , I started to take music course and I manage to open up a music society for kids called music of the bench society as a reminiscence of him deep in the core of my heart as he is the one that kept my heart smiling each minute of everyday till the last breathe .
:)
